i only wanted you awake enough
to notice me in bed with you
and love me


you wanted this 3 hours ago
when it was still midnight...
.. and gave in without complaining
when I was too engrossed.


Now sleeping - the selfishness of this urge astounds me...
as I battle with losing resistance the need to nudge you out of slumber
to - hey ! pay attention to me


That you fought and won without uttering
a single word of
remorse
or rancor


with a grace and love
that humbles me.
(but doesn't quell the hunger)